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Monday, 20 October 2008

where did that girl go??

wow I'm still alive. It's been almost a year. Life couldn't be better. I have an amazing man in my life. We are engaged we have been together for over a year. I have an awesome job at a large steel company in Baltimore. I am living in my own apartment in rosedale. The best part I finally turned 21!!! I loves me sum delicious margaritas!! I keep a pretty low profile it keeps me out of trouble haha anybody who feels like life sucks ass trust me it gets much better! keep on keeping on!!!

Monday, 31 December 2007

so i walked out on my job on dec. 12th.... i pretty much had an emotional breakdown. i drove to the mall and played scratch-offs all that afternoon. wondering what the hell i just did. i figured i would win big- collect my money and run off to florida. haha. yeah that pretty much didnt happen. i did a lot of wandering around with my best friend. we did a lot of thinking-- i splurged on a lot of stuff i shouldnt have. i pretty much lived like i was dying tomorrow. we both got tattoos- i got a virgin mary and him a snake. i was so confused with myself. i no longer had any money coming in... and i was spending like i was making millions....

christmas eve- we went to the christmas village... and i had a moment there. a good moment. i realization that everything is going to be o.k.- it might not be o.k. tomorrow but when its all said and done ill be happy. my best friend and i are going to the inner harbor tonight for new years- have some fun. ya know.

i start a new job next monday.... another steel company- but about 5 times the size of the place i came from... ill be making freaking bank and im excited. i guess i can make up for the money i spent.... not to mention i had to buy a whole new wardrobe for this job. haha.

happy new year.

Sunday, 23 September 2007

i guess this is a little update just for myself cuz i dont think anybody reads this... but oh well...

so i made a few really bad decisions couple of months ago-- because i thought that this was it for me... yeah i am only 19 so i dont know why i thought that i had to make these major life decisions like i was 40 years old with no other options. i up and left my parents house- WORST MISTAKE EVER. i had it fucking made and never even knew it until i was broke and unhappy sitting in an apartment with a boyfriend that i thought i loved. i started running from my own self and just trying to stay away from the place cuz i was so fucking miserable.

then i started to spend time with the best person in the world- and in the middle of this mess he was there for me 100%- and he helped me realize that i had to make some major choices. MAJOR choices. i had been at the apartment for about a month with a 13 months lease. i had to leave- i was having an emotional/nervous breakdown from it all- with his help i found the strength to end a 6 year relationship and ask my parents for their forgiveness in my horrible decisions... and i did.

i moved out 2 weekends later- now i have the fucking burden of paying for a place i dont live in until next august. i never realized how much a bad decision can affect your entire life until recently.

but on the other hand- im so fucking happy i can barely stand it... my parents and i are getting along a lot better. and im making plans to be moving down to florida. which is 100% going to happen which im totally excited about- im moving down there with the most awesome person ever. we are both going to start all over there- which we both need really bad.

my job at access metals is going a hell of a lot better than before- im pretty happy there- yeah it is a job but it was hell for a while. the company is celebrating their 1 year anniversary on friday ive been there for almost seven months. i cant believe how fast it has gone by.

i got some really awesome piercings and tattoos lately- total of 14 piercings and 14 tattoos with plans for more. ive gotten into photography lately i got a brand new digital camera- i made the soundtrack to my life with my new ipod nano and im recording the fun things happening to me with my new camcorder. its all been so fucking good lately.

i have an awesome celica that i own and i drive a 2007 limited edition mustang that i share with u.b. and im turning 20 on oct. 9th and i couldnt be happier.

Thursday, 06 September 2007

i am so fucking happy.

Sunday, 21 January 2007

i LOVE how jesus keeps fucking his people in the asshole....
people make me sick sometimes.

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- Name: Kay
- Country: United States
- State: Maryland
- Metro: Harford County
- Birthday: 10/9/1987
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 1/15/2004